Today my heart hurts. It’s a selfish hurt. For the bad habits I’ve gained, dreams I’ve lost, and just generally not being happy with my life. I feel incredibly off track, and not quite sure how to get back on track, or which track I even want to be on.
- 5 months ago
Today I’m thankful for the way photography makes me pay attention to the seasons, the weather, and light. Always light. Lately I have been noticing so many beautiful details, which is what I’m about, really. I’m not always great at seeing the big picture, but I find so much joy in mundane details. :)
- 6 months ago
it is mid fucking september im supposed to be waking up to a cold morning chill and the smell of pumpkin flavored everything and thinking abt what toasty ass sweater im gonna wear not waking up feeling as though satan has been cradling me in between his ass cheeks while hovering in close proximity to the sun obama fix this
A COLD FRONT IS COMING HERE (UPSTATE SC) TOMORROW NIGHT.
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OH MY GOD FAMILY MEMBERS CALLING OUT OF THE BLUE AND GRILLING ME ABOUT WHAT I’M DOING TO FURTHER MY CAREER STRESSES ME THE FUCK OUT UGH
No sweet moment goes unfarted.
I really hate the sound of gunshots. I live in the country and it’s not deer hunting season yet so my neighbors are probably just doing target practice but it still puts me on edge.
- 7 months ago
One of those days when everything feels wrong.
ETA: turns out it’s PMS making me feel absolutely awful. ugh I hate my period.
It’s raining again. Pouring, actually, with gusts of wind and thunder in the distance. The woods around my home always feel a bit like the rainforest in the summer, but this has been the wettest summer I can remember. Usually around this time of year spring’s green lusciousness has become faded and dull due to the Southern heat, and I start counting down the days until autumn, when the leaves will turn and be colorful again.
I’ve never been a religious person but I’ve always been spiritual, and I’ve always placed special importance in water. Rain, to me, represents rebirth, freshness, starting over, transitions… before this summer, before the rain, I was finishing college, burned out. I think I could have stepped straight from that frantic fire into winter hibernation and welcomed the chill, but maybe it was better this way.
I wonder what I will be reborn as, when the rain is over and I stand under the dry Autumn sun. I wonder what the future holds.
- 7 months ago
Right now some pinto beans are cooking in the pressure cooker and it smells 1. sooo good because 2. when I was growing up my family was vegetarian so we cooked a lot of beans, so it’s one of the smells of my childhood. :)
I’m attempting to unfuck my sleep schedule because last week I didn’t get to sleep earlier than 2am any night and drank coffee every day and my body is like what the actual fuck so.
Heading to bed now. Excited to skype with someone tomorrow!